I am convinced that the most miserable person on the planet is the carnal Christian who can only misrepresent in trying to have it both ways and end up with enough of Jesus to be unhappy in the world and enough of the world to be unhappy in Jesus.
I think that one of the best tools of the enemy is in calling attention to our failures and weaknesses since they are often facts that we can not deny, why we disqualify ourselves and offer the kind of excuses that Moses gave God, Exodus 4:10 "And Moses said unto the LORD, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither heretofore, nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: but I am slow of speech, and of a slow tongue."
Then there was Isaiah who suddenly saw himself compared to a perfect God and said, Isaiah 6:5 "Then said I, Woe is me! for I am undone; because I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips: for mine eyes have seen the King, the LORD of hosts."
I get hung up with these things all the time, not trusting the Lord enough to be strong in these times when I feel like crawling in a corner and staying there when drawing closer to Jesus and in the process being made more aware of how dirty I am next to Him. Knowing, that I would never choose myself to be any kind of an ambassador for Jesus as Paul says in 2 Corinthians 5:20 "Now then we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God did beseech you by us: we pray you in Christ's stead, be ye reconciled to God."
Knowing from times past that I would only misrepresent and being aware of how much God hates misrepresentation, hell waits for those who misrepresent Jesus to the world. But I guess it is good to be afraid and concerned of misrepresentation, especially when we see those who have no fear of God and playing the role while not even in the script. Hell must be much hotter for the Benny Hinns and other pseudo-Christians who may have even deceived themselves to think they will be the leaders of the new millennium.
I keep being reminded that our strength does not rest in our ability, but availability.
God only wants our availability wherein we ask the same question as Paul asked, when blinded by His glory in Acts 9:6.
"And he trembling and astonished said, Lord, what wilt thou have me to do? And the Lord said unto him, Arise, and go into the city, and it shall be told thee what thou must do."
We still think like a wolf pack that has the 'alpha wolves' and the 'omega wolves' and many of us have the attitudes of the omega wolves who are the last to feed and the least in the pack, just the kind of folks God loves to start with and raise Himself to reflect Jesus and not the individual making little puddles when seeing the glory of God and become instant wimp like Isaiah.
Making that journey from the halfway point to the crest of the hill to be used of God is what scares many of us, Job 4:4 "Thy words have upholden him that was falling, and thou hast strengthened the feeble knees."
Isaiah 35:3 "Strengthen ye the weak hands, and confirm the feeble knees."
Hebrews 12:12-13 "Wherefore lift up the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees; and make straight paths for your feet, lest that which is lame be turned out of the way; but let it rather be healed."
Last verse would bother me to think about being turned out of the way or put on the shelf to be a useless talking head without a body. Looking at the Word again, to see that being turned out of the way is that point, where God will cripple a person as He did Jacob, Genesis 32:25 "And when he saw that he prevailed not against him, he touched the hollow of his thigh; and the hollow of Jacob's thigh was out of joint, as he wrestled with him." Yet, Paul still writes about Jacob in Hebrews 11:21 that, "By faith Jacob, when he was a dying, blessed both the sons of Joseph; and worshipped, leaning upon the top of his staff."
Jesus says to lean on Him, our provision for being lame when we have had to be crippled in order to be humbled.
I am very much aware, that there is no way I could stand without that Staff holding me up, not able to do the most simple things that come easy to many other people,
James 1:9 "Let the brother of low degree rejoice in that he is exalted:"
Takes a lot to convince me of that, hardest point of the journey is in being halfway there, not wanting to grow up to maturity so end up being like that duck Baby Huey in diapers too heavy for the crib and still wanting to be bottle fed.